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Rethink ya bewb.

Tuesday, March 9th, 2010

Quote “Don’t blame your problems on your sunglasses! That’s no different from tripping on the street and blaming the pebble! ” – Gintama

Stop and think for a moment: Who in your life is your friend?

To me, a friend is someone who….

  1. …I can laugh and rant about anything and everything to and will still love me and will laugh/rant along with me!
  2. …accepts me for what I am and I can accept them for what they are.
  3. …I can spill my heart and soul out onto and I will know that they will help mend it and return it back to me when I am back to my senses.
  4. …I can hang out with and not be worried about my physical appearance.
  5. …will abolish the feeling of loneliness by being there for me even when I am “physically” alone. I can be sitting/walking alone or even with a crowd of acquaintances and not feel lonely because…I’m not!
  6. …I ENJOY BEING AROUND.
  7. …I can discuss my interest in yaoi with. TEHEHEHE
  8. …feels the same way back at me!

Now, I know most people either ask too much of a person to be a friend or ask too little (heck, I’ve been through both). To me, this is what a friend IS NOT:

  1. Despite what we see in the media, a friend IS NOT someone who you can call at 4:00AM (unless they are awake with you) when you are BORED or feeling LONELY. Unless you are experiencing an emotional breakdown of some sort or had some nightmare, FRIENDS still need their beauty sleep and a long day to live through, so BE CONSIDERATE and don’t expect them to be there for your EVERY LITTLE NEED. Don’t blur the role between boyfriend/girlfriend and FRIEND.
  2. Someone who will hang out with you/talk to you all the time. Once again, don’t blur the role between boyfriend/girlfriend and FRIEND. Friends have their own lives, relationships (whether they are meaningful or not) with other people just like you do. They have school, work, times when they feel lazy/tired just like you. BE CONSIDERATE and don’t make them undergo guilt trips. (Now..if they are canceling EVERY SINGLE hangout/talktime with you for like months without a really good reason, then I suggest you reconsider the friendship).
  3. Someone who does not treat you as their equal.
  4. Backstabbers, obviously.
  5. People who you don’t find yourself enjoying when with them. If you find yourself forcing yourself to like them, then they are not your friends.

Haha, yeah that is my basic list of what a friend is/is not. It’s just that I constantly see/hear about people stressing over really trivial relationships regarding friendship. Not to sound cliche, but life is a journey of breaking and creating relationships. When a relationship is broken, the first feeling is sadness (naturally). Crying, ranting, etc about a broken relationship is a good sign in a sense. When your emotions get pullled to the negative extreme when a relationship is severed, it shows how important the relationship was to you (and that you are human and have emotions :B).

But once a relationship is severed and your grief is over, you must realize that you have gained some valuable experience from it. Whether it is that you are too nice of a person, you’re too cold of a person, whatever, you’ll realize it after the relationship is over and hopefully use the experience and change into a better person and not make the same mistakes again. And above all if the relationship ended because of a betrayal of the other person, BE HAPPY THAT THEY HAVE FINALLY SHOWN YOU THEIR TRUE FACE. Be happy that they have showed you how insignificant you are in comparison to the other things/people in their life. Be happy that they betrayed you and you are not longer deceived by that fake smile on their face. Be happy that you will no longer waste your feelings/time/etc on an insignificant person. With this in mind, you can move on. (and plus, caring about these people take too much work…hehe)

P.S: It’s Spring Break for me, so hurrah! An update within a week ;D (ew I have 3tests when I go back to school -_-)
P.S.S: Please check out my submission for Tomorrow’s Deception Literature Contest and if you like it, please VOTE FOR MEEEE. Thanks in advance! ;3

WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A FRIEND?

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…EHHHH??

Tuesday, March 2nd, 2010

Quote “If you embarass yourself, you’ll surely grow stronger!” – Gintama

TIME GOES BY TOO FAST!!! =_=

I get home from school at roughly 5:00PM. I shower, eat dinner, study, do homework, relax…and when I look at the clock again it is SOMEHOW 10:45PM?! =A=;

I make getting 8-10hours of sleep EVERY night the #1 priority (sometimes I cut it to 7hours if I have lots of unfinished work but it’s rare), haha. So what I am getting at is…

…I wanna make pretty wallpapers~layouts~websites *heavy, heavy sigh* But when I look at some amazing wallers at MT, they note that it takes about SIX HOURS everyday for like, a week or two for 1 wallpaper (an impressive one I may add). And that is if you work SIX HOURS EVERYDAY FOR AN ENTIRE WEEK (or two)! And it’s not that they’re lying, it’s truth (from experience). But GOOD LORD! How can you spend SIX FLIPPING HOURS EVERY DAY FOR A WEEK? I can’t even sit in front of a computer for 6hours! =A=; True, I can spread out that time…but goodness, it’ll take me a month to finish something…if I even stay interested! X_X If I spent 6hours, that means that right after I come home from school, I’d have to work on walling and no homework and no life! =..= And I want another 4.0, hahaa…*sigh*

But I don’t wanna give up my studying time, sleeping time nor do I wanna give up my relaxing/no thinking time (when I watch anime and/or read manga XD). BOO! The day is too short! X_X

Gimme some tips on how you manage your time please~! Seee you gaiiz soon ;3

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This I Believe

Tuesday, February 9th, 2010

This I Believe Essay: The Journey of Self-Acceptance

I believe in self-acceptance and that self-acceptance lights the path to happiness and inner peace. When I mean happiness, I do not mean the pleasure you get from opening Christmas gifts, the excitement you get while partying or the feeling of luck you get when winning the lottery. Happiness is accepting and believing in something only you have full control of: your soul. Some people can find self-acceptance on their own. But most people, like myself, need others to guide them on their journey to self-acceptance and happiness.

During my senior year of high school, I was down in the dumps. Not only did my ‘first love’ dump me with no intention of coming back, but my ‘friends’ of high school treated me as if I did not exist. I felt anguish, confusion, humiliation, and alienation. I depended on their praise and company to be proud of myself. In reality, however, all I was doing was deferring my attention from accepting the only thing that can grant me true happiness: me. I would feel great when people would say, “You look really pretty!” or “You are so amazing!” I would smile and say thanks even though I wished I could just disappear. I was ashamed and afraid of myself. The face I wore with a smile was nothing but a suffocating mask. I became addicted to the artificial feelings I received with other people. The feelings I felt with people were not feelings of happiness. They provided a temporary high. But when I stopped receiving them, I crashed. But as I crashed, I was rebuilt again.

In my sorrow and withdrawal, I found my three angels that helped me find happiness within: Amanda, Lucia, and Sally. They did not say things like “I wish I could be like you!” nor did they say “The clothes you wear look really good on you!” They said things that melted away that mask of mine. They told me: “There are also people that will listen to your problems and still accept and love you for who you are. Those—we are your friends, not them. The fact that you regret your mistakes shows that you have a heart. You are a good person.”

They cleared the damp mist of doubt looming over me. That was all I needed.

Thanks to those words, I looked into myself. You do not need the whole world nor a big group of people on your side to feel happy. What you need is a small number of friends that will seal the nothingness you have been feeling all your life so you can fill it on your own. Filling that nothingness is the journey to internal happiness. Self-acceptance is necessary in filling that nothingness and in order to accept yourself, you might need some angels to light the way for you. So after you find your angels and accept their guidance, do not be afraid to be happy…

Aha, that was my This I Believe essay that I had to write for my writing class last semester. I know it isn’t the best essay you have ever read but nonetheless I felt like sharing my belief with the blogosphere anyway. It was a pretty interesting project I had to do and the site has lots of interesting essays so I suggest you go to the website and check it out ;D

What do YOU believe in?

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I’m a boob.

Wednesday, January 20th, 2010

Location My university’s Asian Library (yes, we have one)

So I haven’t blogged in a month even though I had literally a month off. I’m a boob. I suck! I didn’t even read the last post’s comments (reading them now AHH) So now I’m in school (fun times) and I am blogging not because I want to but because I have so much time…let me explain…

This is my schedule for the Spring 2010 Semester. Very exciting… X_X

M,W: 9:10-12:10 PM: Intro to Graphic Design I
M,W,F: 12:20-1:15 PM: Theology II: Pers. On Christianity
M,W,F: 1:25-2:20 PM: History: Emergence Global Society
M,W,F: 3:35-4:30PM: Philosophy II: Ethics
T,TH: 1:30-2:55PM: Anatomy and Physiology

(My university is a Catholic school so we have a billion of core classes that other universities do not…like 3 Philosophy classes, 3 Theology classes, etc)

So today is Wednesday and is the first day of the spring semester. My Graphic design class is a studio class that is supposed to be 3 hours long but because it was the first day it was barely an hour. For those who do not know, I live with my grandma so I can just walk to my university (I have to take 2 buses from my house, ew.).

And it just so happens that TODAY my grandparents are at the doctor.
And I don’t have the keys to their house.
And my next class is in another 2 hours.
And I have nothing to do for these 2 hours.
And I’m bored.
AHHHhhHH!!!! T_T

QUESTIONS FOR YOU~
1. In a job interview, when they ask “Why do you want to work at OUR company?”, what do you respond/write? Or, what would you write?
(I’m trying to get my 1st job so…yeah. Help! X_X)

2. Do you read manga/watch anime? If so, please recommend me some good ones ;)

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Site reramp & 2009 recap!

Monday, December 21st, 2009

Music LM.C: BOYS & GIRLS

Wow it has been about a month since I last posted. The past month I was authentically BUSY. At the beginning of this month I had 5-10 page papers due in all of my classes and finals just a week ago. Don’t get me wrong; I was not stressed because I do not cram anymore…just busy!

Anyway, I decided it was time for a new layout. First of all, in the middle of October I cut 6 inches of my hair and the layout I had up was with my long hair, so it was annoying looking at it XD Anywho. I also update my profile picture there since the previous picture was really outdated, haha. Man have I visibly matured (or aged :P ) over the past couple of months! Going back to the layout, this layout features the very hot hot HOT Izumi Sano from the manga HANA KIMI! ♥_♥ For more info, click here. ANY COMMENTS AND FEEDBACK ON THIS LAYOUT ARE ALL WELCOMED!

Wow, 2009 went by really fast. It feels like just yesterday when I was applying to colleges and when I thought I was going to major in Childhood Education (thank God I did not). When I think about myself one year ago, I cannot help but think that I would have never have guessed that I would be where and what I am today. The future is quite frightening and mysterious! But that is what makes it fun and exciting ;) Unfortunately, my 2009 New Years Resolutions were all pretty much EPIC FAIL. 9/10 of them involved improving relations with my ex-boyfriend! haha well life moves on! 2010 is a nice number~~~!

MY 2O1O NEW YEARS RESOLUTIONS WOOT WOOT
1. Keep my GPA above a 3.7 (2010 includes 2nd semester and 1st semester of 2nd year!)
(EDIT 12/23 WAHOO ALL MY GRADES FOR 1ST SEMESTER ARE UP! 4.O BABYYYYYY ;D Hard work pays off!)
2. Be there for my family and friends.
3. Quit wasting and asking my parents for money.
4. Try to enjoy socializing with new people (haha).
5. Make use of, organize and expand this site!
6. Maintain my current healthy, laid-back, stress free, happy outlook on life.
7. Make layouts for Poopie-chan and Butt-chan within the next few weeks! (Sorry gaiiz T_T)

Heh. My resolutions for this year are pretty short ^^; I really cannot think of anything more at the moment -_- Anyway, I made a gift for my blog buddies, commenters and visitors ♥



So that is all for now! Feel free to share your resolutions with me or any thoughts you have! I love reading comments! I also got two sites up, yay! click here to view them~

I also got an MSN account so I can communicate with the online community more efficiently, so feel free to add me: chocoripeyes@hotmail.com (tell me who you are though!).

I’m also looking for more blog buddies so if anyone is interested, drop me a comment telling me so~!
I look forward in hearing from you ;D

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Give thanks! :)

Monday, November 23rd, 2009

Quote “There is no external justification for the values and way of life that anyone chooses to adopt.” – Jean Paul Sartre

Hi everybody! Yeah that little ‘brief hiatus’ turned into two months! //fail. But I was honestly planning to update with a new layout but I have have been so busy that I have not had the time to make one that I was satisfied with. :(

School is going pretty well. My midterm average is about a 3.7 which sucks because I want a 4.O! I got a B+ in my English Composition class because I handed things in late…and an A- in Evolution because my test average was a 90! BOO!!! Everything else was an A with the average of 100+ in all 3 classes so they had no choice but to give me that…MUAHHAa

But I’m thankful for midterm grades! They forced me to do better…so in English Composition I made sure to hand in everything ontime and I recieved a 97 on my Evolution test! ^_^ Evolution is not that bad anymore…I still hate essay tests though! BOOOOOO

Thanksgiving Recess is starting in a few days!!! Yay! But nooo at the same time! I have papers due after the recess in every class! eww.

But aside from school, I have been into Katekyo Hitman Reborn! THIS SHOW IS FILLED WITH YOUNG BISHONEN ♥_♥ MARRY ME HIBARIIIII lol just kidding… ;D

But out of all seriousness, Thanksgiving is supposed to bring to mind what we are thankful for! So I hope all of you think about your loved ones and your good health or whatnot during this break!

What I’m thankful for:

1. My friends: Amanda, Jessica, Lucia and Sally. Thanks for being there for me and making me enjoy life!
2. My good health!
3. My happiness!
4. My family for bearing with the angsty me.
5. My grandma and grandpa for letting me stay at their house on weekdays and taking care of me.
6. Katekyo Hitman Reborn! for giving me good laughs and Hibari for making my heart go DOKI DOKIIII hehe
7. My flashdrives! I don’t know what I’d do without you little things.
8. Sushi! so yummy.
9. My body for allowing me to live life to the fullest.
10. God for making me go through lots of shit…but without all that shiz, I wouldn’t be what I am today! And I love me!!! (not to sound like a narcissist or anything)

Questions for you!
How are YOU doing? And most importantly, what are YOU thankful for? Please list them (like what I did above) in your comments and don’t be afraid to tell a friend, “Thanks for being there for me!” ^_^

HAPPY THANKSGIVING EVERYBODY!!!

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I can see your halo!

Saturday, August 29th, 2009

Quote “Only a person who has felt ultimate despair is capable of feeling ultimate bliss.” — The Count of Monte Cristo

15 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME! (oh yay)

1. I like coffee with milk and sugar!
2. ‘Sapphire‘ came about when I first applied for a subdomain (5 years ago…) I didn’t read the rules using my real name, so I sent in a 2nd application using ‘Sapphire’ (and got accepted as Sapphire)!
3. I love the color RED! Tehehe.
4. Eric Bana is hot for an old dude.
5. I really, really want suspenders right now but I never come across any!
6. I’ve started using sunscreen everyday (including wintertime) and anti-wrinkle cream! Early prevention before they appear is the best remedy against wrinkles and sunspots!
7. I get wedgies a lot. *sigh* :T
8. My friends call me a walking advertisement for Rite Aid. It’s not my fault that Rite Aid has really great and amazing deals ALL the time!
9. When I was younger, I had a crush on Tuxedo Mask from Sailor Moon. TwT
10. Bon Jovi’s Livin’ On a Prayer and It’s my Life are my most favorite songs to sing in karaoke!
11. I LOVE baking but I suck miserably and all my creations come out looking deformed!
12. I have an autographed D’espairsRay poster and a picture with them YEAH!!!
13. The girl in the avatar in this entry is me!
14. It’s difficult earning both my respect and admiration. Therefore, if I respect and admire you, you must be something really amazing!
15. It’s ‘you get what you give’ with me. Be nice to me, and I will be nice to you! :3

Tell me some random (interesting :P ) facts about YOU!
If I find your fact(s) intriguing, I will put it up on the next post :]

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GET HAPPY!

Monday, July 27th, 2009

Quote “It’s all right. I’ll definitely catch you, and I won’t let go. So believe in me, and let yourself fall.” — Fall in Love with Me


Hola! Feeling depressed or down? I have been looking for ways to boost an individual’s mood over the past few months and have come up with this list! I have tried every single method listed at some point in my life and they all work for me, so if you want to GET HAPPY, try a few of them out! ;) Some are pretty obvious, but…all well :B

SAPPHIRE’S “GET HAPPY!” LIST!

1. GET OFF THAT COMPUTER!

Chatting with friends on an instant messaging system or a social networking site? Browsing a billion websites cause you’re bored? Instead of instant messaging your friends, pick up your phone and CALL them. Or even better, get off your ass and MEET UP WITH THEM! And instead of browsing a billion sites, get OUT and browse a billion of sights OUTDOORS! (that was corny, but you get what I mean :B)

2. TAKE A SHOWER!

Or wash your face or drink/eat something cold (ex: Ice cream). Going out to jog or walking outdoors when the weather’s nice is also refreshing. Observe your surroundings to keep your mind off things. You’d be surprised about how many things you didn’t notice before.

3. LISTEN TO UPBEAT, HAPPY/NEUTRAL MUSIC!

Music with a great bass line or just head bopping beat is good. Try not to listen to depressing, slow songs or songs with sad lyrics that you can understand and/or can relate to when you’re feeling shitty. I recently found the techno remix of “In the hall of the Mountain King” and it is freakishly upbeat and I get a tremendous high from listening to it :S

4. FIND OUT WHO YOUR REAL FRIENDS ARE!

This is pretty hard and may take lots of time. But I guarentee you, once you find out who they are and seperate them from the people that do not matter (and hang out with them less or no more), it is a great feeling. Everyone has a different view on what a “real friend” is, but this is what I define as a “real friend”: someone who may or may not fully understand you but tries to and accepts you anyway, cares, and just loves you for who you are! And above all, you’re HAPPY when you’re with them; living, laughing and loving~ :3 And of course, being yourself. But how would you know they care? That’s for you to find out…

5. SURROUND YOURSELF WITH HAPPY, LOVING PEOPLE!

This kinda connects to “find out who your real friends are”. Everyone has different friends, but in my eyes, if a person can’t be happy around me, depresses me, or makes me feel uncomfortable, they can’t be a real friend. This means that we do not “click”, if you get what I mean. Sure, everyone has their bad days and gets depressed once in a while, but if they are just downright depressing every single time and you can’t do anything to make them feel better, that person ain’t for you. They might even rub off their gloomyness onto you! O_O

6. RELIVE YOUR CHILDHOOD!

Hang out with your friends and do something that you have once done when you were younger. This summer, me and my friends have Sailor Moon / other old school anime marathons on a weekly basis and we give each other really weird immature nicknames too (Ex: Boobie-chan, Booger-chan, Excretion-chan…you get the idea) and laugh really loudly and obnoxiously :B

7. RECONNECT WITH AN OLD FRIEND THAT YOU HAVEN’T SPOKE TO IN YEARS!

I hope that all of you had a best friend in elementary school. You probably have his/her phone number, so pick up the phone and try calling them! If he/she was your best friend, he/she should still remember you! And if his/her phone number no longer connects to them, at least you can say you’ve tried. No regrets!

8. GET A MAKEOVER!

I don’t know about you, but the way I look does affect my mood and self-esteem. Makeovers can be costly, so if you cannot afford a new wardrobe or cosmetics/skincare stuff, some department stores offer free makeovers (just pretend you’re buying something) and keep a mental note about what they say and do to you. Don’t keep your makeover a secret though, tell a friend or a family member about it and hopefully they can help :3 Also, if its your skin (ex: acne, discoloration) or your glasses that is making you feel mcfugly, go visit your dermatologist or optomologist and get a perscription for the problem or get new glasses. (Hopefully you have health insurance :o )

9. DOING SOMETHING & NOT EXPECTING SOMETHING IN RETURN!

It doesn’t necessarily mean go volunteer at an animal shelter for the rest of the summer (that’d be nice though), but just do something from the bottom of your heart for someone/something. It can be anything–something as simple as not taking allowance for a week so your parents can have some extra money for themselves.

10. TAKE A VACATION!

May it be a vacation alone, with friends or family, a vacation is a vacation! An escape from the usual people and surroundings! I am fortunate enough to go on 2 vacations every summer. tehehe :3

BOTTOMLINE: LIVE, LAUGH, AND LOVE!

This is the last, most obvious and important on my list! (and also summarizes the list) Of course, when I mean live, I mean have fun (in a good, healthy way…read #1-9 for details :B), and when I mean laugh, I don’t mean laugh at people and when I mean love, I don’t mean romantic love (because romantic love sucks and isn’t always “happy”. Go watch an Asian drama and see how much pain the couple go through –;). Just go out and have a great time with the people that you love and that love you! (What are you still doing on the computer? :B)

Yep Yep thats my list ^_^ I hope I have helped some people by writing up this list and I hope these work for all of you!
GOT ANY RECOMMENDATIONS TO “GET HAPPY” FOR ME THAT I DID NOT LIST HERE?
Please tell me! ^_~ I’d love to try it out! Spread the happiness around!~ LOVU LOVU~~~!

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Let the waves up, take me down

Friday, June 5th, 2009

Music Blue October: Into the Ocean

It is 10:00AM and I am home. :o Today is Senior Cut Day in my school o.O And…wow. When I woke up this morning, it felt mighty weird being the only one awake and home in my house. And lonely. =_= *sigh* And on top of that, it was mighty gloomy outside X__x It’s been raining for the past 3 days straight. Prom was on Wednesday, and I did not go (for obvious reasons) but hung out in the Manhattan with some people. AHHHHH holy shit what depresses me the most is how…I would’ve NEVER EVER EVER guess, say, 5 months ago, that my senior year would end up like this: crap =.= So much for my happy high school ending. HAH.

I just realized I didn’t do much crazy shits in my life. I’m a conservative person. It will be raining all day today. You know what I wanna do? I wanna get sick in the rain! Run around and do stupid shits. XD Sounds crazy and stupid, if I was my old self I would’ve dismissed this idea completely, but…what is there to lose? I also wanna kiss in the rain like in those movies LMFAO =_= Well I wont be doing that for a couple months, years…! bah! And I wish I had more friends that were girls -.- No, better yet, I wish I was a boy. //sigh.

I have about an hour before I go out with friends, but I don’t think Senior Cut Day is supposed to leave one home and alone with one’s thoughts, is it? I hate being alone. My mind has a tendency to wander into dark places >__> I mean, shit, yeah I have friends and family that are pretty cool. I want a boyfriend =A=; Oh em gee, did I just write that? The truth hurts, but that’s the truth =_= I wish I never got meself a boyfriend in general so I won’t want to have to fill that missing piece in my “heart” (life? ok that was corny). Screwing up my mood and senior year ugh. I just wanna be that ditz I once was again. Life was so much easier and brighter last year. :/

Question for YOU!
If you had a time machine, where would you travel to to change/visit and why?

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